So this is a little something I found on my Xanga that I wrote before I graduated. I had an assignment to give a toast to my fellow classmates and well here it is.
It’s official that my high school career has come to an end. The four years came as fast as a blink of an eye. High school is usually the climax of your life. It’s when you experience the highest limits of emotion quickly. You experience anger, fear, sadness, joy, disgust, surprise, curiosity, and acceptance. With these emotions that I’ve felt the strongest throughout these four years, I’ve tried my best to learn how to deal with each and every one of them maturely as an adult. I came to realize my future awaits me closely and I need to be ready for whatever it may bring. In order to do that I needed to learn how to deal with my emotions so they wouldn’t come in the way of my struggle to succeed in life. There were moments in my life where I reached each and every one of these emotions to their utmost potential. These moments were the unexpected.
I never expected having the chance to meet my dream celebrity but losing my best friend in the process. I never expected crashing my car and getting away with a lie. I never expected losing my childhood friendship. I never expected karma to bite me in the butt really good homecoming night. I never expected to feel so disappointed within myself. I never expected to be good friends with the jerk that didn’t put me on ASB. I never expected to be betrayed by the person I trusted the most. I never expected completely losing touch with my closest friends I had at church. I never expected breaking down multiple times uncontrollably in front of strangers. I never expected I’d ever be so vulnerable and open up so quickly. I never expected getting close to one of the most amazing girls I know during the Oklahoma production. I never expected befriending my worst enemies in Dragon Flicks. I never expected actually enjoying Dragon Flicks. I never would have expected one of my former childhood friends to be pregnant. I never expected long relationships that have lasted years to come to an end. I never expected a former teacher being murdered. I most definitely never expected high school to pass by so quickly.
And so the statement remains true that life is unexpected. I guess the greatest life lesson learned throughout the years of my high school career is to accept the fact life is unexpected. I will never be able to hold or control what the future has in store for me. I have to live with the fact that life isn’t predictable. You have to deal with situations on the spot. Most importantly you have to deal with them in a mature manner. I just hope I have finally gained that maturity as well as my classmates throughout these four years.
Despite all the downfalls to some these unexpected events they were what made my high school years. If it weren’t for them I wouldn’t learn how to deal with life in the future. I’ve also learned and accepted the fact that friends come and go. It doesn’t matter how many years you’ve known them, it’s what you have benefited from the years of knowing them. I’ve also learned life is too short to hold grudges.
Graduation is only a few days away and I just wanted to say it’s not the end, it’s the beginning. It’s the beginning of our new lives; it’s our time to shine as individuals. It’s the most precious and greatest gift of all; it’s a chance to start over. It’s what I have been working so hard for. I officially can shed the skin and image of what people see as me now and be what I want to be without my past interfering. I wish everybody the greatest luck in their future.
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